G#m - 466444
E - 022100
B - x24442
D#m - x68876

[Intro]
G#m E B D#m

[Verse 1]
G#m
Sometimes, it’s not our tears that measure our pain
E
But it’s the fake smiles we put on everyday
B
I’m so tired of always acting like I'm okay
D#m
But it’s just so much easier than even trying to explain

[Verse 2]
G#m
How I feel to all these people who just can’t relate
E
When I smile I wonder if they can see it’s fake
B
Or if they can see the pain inside my very eyes
D#m
Or I’ve become a master now at always wearing this disguise

[Verse 3]
G#m
Because I’m hurting, but I try my best to never show it
E
Ask how I am
E
I say I'm good
E
But I am at the lowest
B
That I have have been for as long as I’ve been alive
D#m
I’m hurting but won’t let anyone about what’s inside
Of me

[Verse 4]
G#m
I’m in the depths of my own mind
G#m
I feel like I’m drowning
E
I’m fighting demons everyday, but I feel surrounded
B
This is a battle
B
And I’m losing
B
I can’t hold on no longer
D#m
They say you grow from all your pain
D#m
But I’m not getting stronger

[Verse 5]
G#m
I’m getting weaker as everyday passes by
E
They told me that love’s the answer
E
I responded that’s a lie
B
Cuz I was in love
B
And came out more broken than I went in
D#m
Now every single day I’m just waiting for heaven

[Chorus]
G#m
I don’t want to be alive
E
But I don’t wanna take my life
B                                          D#m
Cause I’m afraid of what’s on the other side of this
G#m
Oh I don’t wanna lose my mind
E
And I don’t wanna say goodbye
B                                    D#m
Oh I just wanna fall into a world of blissfulness

[Verse 6]
G#m
But everyday is feeling just a little bit colder
E
And everyday I feel this weight that’s falling down on my shoulders
B
I understand it’s in my brain but still I feel I can’t hold it
D#m
I feel like I am just a man but I’m trying to carry boulders of weight

[Verse 7]
G#m
To distract me from this pain
E
Maybe I am just a fool that’s inflicting this in my veins
E
And I’m
B
On the highway that I’ve been trying that I’ve been trying to avoid
D#m
And still I wake up everyday shocked that I’m still destroyed
Oh I

[Chorus]
G#m
I don’t want to be alive
E
But I don’t wanna take my life
B                                          D#m
Cause I’m afraid of what’s on the other side of this
G#m
Oh I don’t wanna lose my mind
E
And I don’t wanna say goodbye
B                                    D#m
Oh I just wanna fall into a world of blissfulness

[Chorus]
G#m
I don’t want to be alive
E
But I don’t wanna take my life
B                                          D#m
Cause I’m afraid of what’s on the other side of this